hMm???

To love is not mean to have

as long as i can see it shining

i'm happy for it

but it doesn't mean

i don't love u

i really care 4 u

all i want is to see u happy

4 me

its okay if

i'm not happy with someone else

than seeing u not happy to be with me

iTs beeN a We3k

dh seminggu aku blk, hmm..asyik kuar jelah keje aku
bukan apa..bosan ddk rumah
adeih..arini pn rasa nk kuar
tp xde duit lak..hehe,kena pau dgn adik2 aku
adoi..nk jd kakak yg bek, sendiri merana
haha..xpe2..aku x kesah pn..aku happy bile diorg epi
byk gk bende pikir time cuti ni..tp sumting yg best
ade r..utk aku n die jer..hahaha..gtg..daa!!!

iTs be3n a wHiLe

time keep running..

its been a while..

i'm not blogging..

a while??

hmm..

i spent my short holiday

at swana dwipa

juz want to search

a peace and calmness in mind and heart

hmm..

everything about migration is settled

same goes to the thing with POLDA

hmm..

Auni's birthday was done well

even something coming through

hmm..

block 10 is finished

it's exam also finished

didn't make it well

i frust on the 1st day

wrong diagnose, wrong hypothesis

means wrong everything

hmm..

shah is admitted t hospital

suspected dengue

n now the result is +ve

pity of him

its happenned during exam's week

don't want to say much

we can see 'everything

hmm...

he asks me to see him

don't know if i have to

even i'd spend my money for that

don't know my feeling right now..

hmm..

something happening

in my friendship life

and i cry..

after all these time

i cried once more to protect

my sincerity in friendship

i hope she still believe

my sincerity

i'm not doing you

the same thing

'she' did to me

if i'd done that

there is no different

between me and 'her'

hmm..

my cellphone is juz damaged

couldn't use it at all

mom told me to bring it home

so, we can repair it

hmm..

this monday

AK980 will sent me home

and i juz want to rest my mind

spending time with my family

as long as i can be

before i get back to

this TEST OF LIFE

LuV CyCL3

to LuV is MeaN tO giV3

to GivE is mEan To aCCePt

To aCCepT is mean to aPPreCiaTe

tO AppR3ciaTe is mEaN To LoV3

cONfuSeD

suddenly instant message's window appeared at the desktop

"Hai syg!!"

his first word

then he put love environment

i'm really confused right now

isn't he already had a new girl now??

then i ask him

"why u keep calling me that?"

n he answered

"bcoz i love to call u that"

"how about the girl"

"which girl..so many of them"

then i change the topic

he asks me to find him at K.S. 

then he ends our conversation with

"sy syg awk..syg awk sgt2"

i juz confused

n keep confused

that night, i make a status about him

' i'm happy with my life now, u're the past n u made me hurt..so, i delete u from my diary'

n sum1 else misunderstood

that the status is for her

then, she make a status

'tanpa ko hidup aku dh aman, pegi ko..shuh3!!'

mcm tu r lebih kurg maksud die

aku x ingat ayat die

but i keep my mind positive

thats not 4 me

then, another status

'....tido...harap esok benda yg x menyenangkan ilg dr pandangan mata'

mcm td r..lbh kurg r ayat die

agak terasa r jugak

thats confirm 4 me

ntahlah

i didn't disturb her or her life anymore

but

why did this happened??

don't know if i shud explain or not

bcoz i'm not wrong

i'm not state the status to her

but i don't want her to misunderstood me

don't want to fight anymore

shud i explained?

or mayb i'm the 1 who misunderstood her

really confused

yOu & mE

I juz don't understand you

What u want from me?

I still remember ur words

'mayb we not meant to be together'

but

why you keep coming into my life

you're hers now

please keep that in ur mind

don't come to me

with something wif our name on it together

bcoz

bcoz of that

i'm putting my hope on you

please

i beg you

juz go away

far

far away

leave me, our love n our memory

LoV3 mEAnS kiLLinG uRseLf

to love means to kill urself

people said

when u love sum1

its mean to give ur heart away to the one

n when u done that

u're killing urself

without a heart u can't breath

thats why

love needs 2 people

2 people who exchange their heart with each other

n 4 that

u'll hear from their lips whisper to each other

'without u i can't breath'

so,

give ur heart to the one

who want to give his/her heart to you too

love is interesting